I’ve been maintaining this thing called life for a while. Why?

The easy answer is “Because I’m good at it.”

Most women are. From a young age maintaining is a goal we are taught to aim at. Especially those that have parents pushing their sweet young children into the American Dream that sometimes feels like a nightmare.

Have you paid attention to the attitudes of those around you over the last few years? 

A lot of people have attitudes oozing with entitlement and resentfulness.

It is due to a combination of fear and poor self-image.

Combine these two things and you have a recipe for a toxic person.

If we have no boundaries, it’s like the wild west up in our lives. It isn’t as cool as it sounds, trust me!

It’s not like Tombstone where the lawless people coming into our lives are taken care of by a group of attractive men with good hearts, quick hands, and good aim. In real life, we have to be our own saviors. 

There are many reasons why I think insecurity keeps us playing small as women. We let others impact what we do out of fear and judgment, leaving us in a place where we don't know what we're worth and we settle when we think we have found security.

If I took a half-day or heaven forbid, a WHOLE day to myself to do nothing...I had major guilt. The kind of guilt that pushed me into hyperdrive the next day or two to “make up” for being sooooo lazy. 

Most of all, I wanted to stay busy, TAKE CONTROL, and plan it ALLLLLLL down to the last detail! All those feelings made me like a voracious contestant that had three pots of coffee before stepping into a twisted productivity game show where winning meant checking off everything on your to-do list and your 10 closest friends.